broken

i feel broken im 23 with a 2 year old,and im pregnant and going through a divorce hes already moving on and i am stuck still in shock wondering what the hell went wrong i mean i know what he tell me went wrong which is hes not the same happy person he used to be and he wants to be that person again but i feel like she is the reason for the rush the reason he missed his daughters birthday and he hasnt even told her im pregnant but yet he wants to build a relashonship with her i still cant figure out how thats going to work in his favor im sorry but if that were me i would be pissed that the person i was talking to didnt tell me something that big and if he does end up sleeping with her and then she finds out well then he can pretty much kiss any chance of anything good bye i wish he would figure out what it is he wants i wish it was me but i know the likly chance it would happen isnt a good one ,and i wish that he would act as excited about this baby as i am i know the timing sucks and maybe if he had waited to file and found out then i was pregnant maybe things would have been diffrent ,no not likly but i dont know what to do i know that i wasnt the perfect wife but i love him with everything and i would be that dumb girl that takes back her ex because she wants a chance to make it right i didnt have that chance i feel as though i was robbed of the chance to fix my marriage like mr.fix it cant fix it so theres no way anyone else can fix it im miserable i tried to start talking to mikie again but im not sure its the right move right now and iv become better friends with jorel so im hoping that we can hang out no strings attached not setting something up to happen just have a friend to lean on that dosnt mind that sometimes i need someone to hug or sit with and watch a movie just someone to make me feel less alone but what guy wants to talk to a single mom moreless a pregnant single mom whos stuck in a marriage for almost another year but the guy gets off scott free he can go and move on with his life because shes home with the baby so its all good i can go be half my age again why do it if you know its not the right thing to do right now why be that self absorbed when you have a kid and a kid on the way i know what i dream of might not happen but it would be nice if we could get along not argue and he could act like he cares how im feeling hormones are a bitch now throw in divorce bipolar not wanting to be alone yea talk about a hot mess why cant there be a book on how to super glue your life back together when its been ripped apart